mind thinks

Time being spent these days...

2012-02-15T05:22:00.000-08:00

carefree as I sit here,
waiting for things to happen,
with words not spoken,
and works not done,
Is it my laziness?

Resting on a sofa,
entertained my eyes,
a creative part got lost somewhere,
life came to a stasis,
Is it my tiredness?

Dreaming on the days,
and sleeping through the night,
not a moment to cherish,
going out is also rare,
Had I forgot the purpose?

Forgot what I gained,
nor did I am interested,
busy I was doing nothing,
nor do I listened to elders say,
Is it my foolishness?

May be its boredom,
or I make it out to be...
or is it my loneliness,
taking its toll on me,
Am I being so reserved?

I don't ask, nor complain,
but its something of a concern,
days will change, or my motive,
its just for a time being,
And......Is it my optimism?? :) :)

Time being spent these days ...
Are a bit not useful..
but still...I am hopeful!! :D

Are you deserving?

2012-01-16T03:34:00.000-08:00

Reality shows and TV, isn't its taking a lot of time from the Indian entertainment industries? A lot of which stand for something that was never relevant to the society, as the race for the TRP got more competitive, New kind of realities came up...taking 'inspiration' from the western reality show.

Someone started with Singing and Dancing competition, went on in the field of comedy, movies, adventure, truth, Cookery, Quiz , mindless gossiping and many more. Though some of them helped to make the people dream come true, others were just for celebrities and of course no use to the society. With it came a heavy prize money of Lakhs and Crores to make the whole thing a lot attractive. Playing with individual emotion and life conditions, they make the audience to hook up to their televisions. But my question here is..are they deserving of the prize money they get and what help does it done to the country as a whole?

Why don't you make a reality show which indirectly helps the country and it's people and the best one could win the prize money which he really deserves for the work. It doesn't solely depend on an extra talent but the aam aadmi could also take part. A show named ARE YOU DESERVING?

You can make it a show where the people compete themselves in helping the city or an area in environmental basis, cultural basis and educational basis...plating trees, causing awareness about something, protecting the ethical and cultural people. You can put it into different levels with each level having something to do for the betterment of the society. Anyway, it's my thoughts but then the entertainment industry is big enough to accommodate these novel ways and this way they could contribute to the society and it's people.

When such person, the one who is good at heart and a responsible citizen win the show, he will indirectly inspire other people to follow his/her footsteps, Ultimately the society, Country will be the winner!! So, I ask you.....
ARE YOU DESERVING??

Just a thought

2012-01-10T03:39:00.000-08:00

The river that flowed...
time that goes on,
the past, present, the future,
walking by the side,
I had discovered.

The rays of sun fell,
showing the colors within,
be it dark or bright,
watching through it,
I had enjoyed.

The tree that stands,
the branches with the leaves,
fruits and flowers of life,
looking at that selfless thing,
I had rested.

The wet sand, and the pebbles,
cold wind as it grazed my face,
the memories revealed,
thinking all of it,
I had relaxed.

Its an assessment,
or just a bit strained,
the things at hand,
getting a way out of it,
I had planned.

So those organisms living along,
the birds above, the insects below,
and I saw all as I had known,
but to be blind, passing by,
had I forgotten to realize?

Once again

2011-10-08T04:33:00.000-07:00

to be right, know the way,

but still be so wrong,

to express the right way,

to reach to the point...

but get failed!

it easy to say,

not a way to convey,

but to be reasonable,

yet be blamed to be insensitive....

to be ignored!

Is it not having faith,

or the pain being too much,

where the love is lacking,

overpowered by worries....

to be rejected!!

but its just this moment,

time will pass by,

relation will start again, afresh,

revitalized, with the feeling...

to be loved!!

yes, I will not be sad,

not to take the stress,

patience...I have, will wait,

to make you understand......

to be together!!

in sorrow and happiness,

to be loved, once again.. :)

Happy Durga Puja!

2011-10-01T05:50:00.000-07:00

So, from where shall I start?
these days go well in our country, say the Navaratri and Durga puja!! The festive season and then we have to look forward to Dusshera and Diwali!

The festivity and it's spiritual presence among the Indians is great thing, even the most youngsters like us just prefer it as a time of vacation, tie with family, new cloth, sweets and lots of Puja Pandal and Idols to visit!
A lot of creativity and hard work to be seen :)

But then, we do had this faith inside us, asking us pay respect, worship or wish for a good life from Maa Durga.
Bound by tradition, and culture, its wonderful way of celebration and spend your time.....making you more close to life around you. Its an identity we had and proud of it!
I am, let's say, not much spiritual, but the visit to Pandals is a must and then there are my friends....who better choose these days to play the Garva... as if they know anything about it!....Its fashionable and easy way to access you know what!
And then there were foods, sales and shopping, to thing of too.....you will never get bored these times....Cheering young and elders alike.

But then too....they do look forward to this festival....and even we admit it or not, its a part of our life, how much we want to live in the materialistic world, our spiritual life, and the traditions, woven around it will bring us back !!

So , Have a Happy Navaratri festival and Durga Puja!!

dreamy eyes

2011-09-24T06:14:00.000-07:00

dreamy dreamy are my eyes,
these days are so divine,
no more tired, gloomy at heart,
now its rise and shine!!

you may be moody,
or the surrounding make you so..
but then there are those moments,
which will make you smile.

why worry if its just a part,
and a lot more lies unseen,
why despair, or be elated,
and wish things will always be....in your ways!!

so I am dreamy,
optimism shows in my heart,
not a joy but am hoping,
a beautiful day would arrive.

thoughts pouring in my mind,
and philosophy shaping up,
small parts and some times,
are just patching up!!

its nothing of sort,
it need not to be,
feel this thing at heart,
and live as you want to be.....

dreamy in my mind,
asking for a logic,
but all I could find,
an intuition at stronger side!!

its not about reasoning,
but taking you at better side,
lighter and softer inside,
living in our good moments.

So I resign now,
letting myself, a little more of inspiring,
the feel....the goodness in the air,
and dreaming some more.....
in my dreamy dreamy eyes!!

the masks we meet...

2011-09-17T05:53:00.000-07:00

He smiled at me,

but looks so uninterested,

and there's another one,

so hollow be the laugh.....

this one seeks sympathy,

but does he really needs,

and then comes she,

with her empty cries!!

Faces it is...

or just the masks to wear,

each emotions so unreal,

just for one's own advantage...

you could feel the difference,

or just a sense of it,

searching for a better part,

deep inside, the soul of it!!

Ego, fear, or plain envy,

we all have it under,

still we want to pretend,

to make our stand better....

early life was so easy,

the stakes not so high,

and we could express so freely,

like pebble in a clear beach!!

Is it too obvious,

or we are getting used to it,

the life taking its own pace,

just have a ride on it......

we too are changing,

situation make us indifferent,

too ready to wear this,

the masks, that we meet!!

Spare a thought...

2011-09-09T05:55:00.000-07:00

Hey friends, Another terror strike in the capital, and our government inaction is really making us angry!!
I am sad thinking about what happened to those poor victims who have now lost many things in the peaceful life with no faults of their own?
What was their mistake to face this ordeal of pain....Will the Government admit their fault or just use the same old sympathy and condolence trick to fool the people??
Just a small poetry, thinking of a character/ a person who had lost his friend/family in this terror strike and his emotions when some VIPs come and just give sympathy and save their face!!

Spare a thought,
to see the unseen,
for once a while,
to stand for something better.

we all know it,
yet we don't recognize,
we make an opinion,
but to follow is far too difficult!!

I am tired, disheartened..
weak we have become,
being a mute spectator,
taking action had never been....an option.

I asked, I cried,
why we had been chosen,
what's our mistake,
its the leaders..who hadn't spoken!!

But then what we expect,
fools gotten the fool,
the weak taken the weaker,
allowing this bloodshed to occur??

how they can't realize?
or they are too blind,
does they know responsibility,
or just know to hide behind!!

I want them to know,
to get the grief I never wanted,
let them face the death, the fear,
the despair, the frustration......

don't give sympathy,
you have lost your credibility,
Now just its a matter of honor,
will you bring it back??
Just Spare a Thought!!

Lost in the symbols...

2011-09-01T04:05:00.000-07:00

Lost in the symbols,

hazy it has been,

with all being superficial,

not a logic to be seen....

to ask for my senses,

or just to follow it,

to identify with itself,

or be clearer at the conscious!!

Lost I have been,

or just being immature,

blind not to see,

influenced by the heresy....

had I been casual,

or indifferent in attitude,

to follow customs or rebel,

research it out in my mind!!

Lost yet endeavors,

I had to see,

somethings far more relevant,

than a inherited story....

they had it planned,

hidden in the symbols,

to take us there,

where they had been!!

Lost in symbols,

and they speak to me,

we follow something,

which meant to be...

we criticize, we laugh,

boast off that we are smart,

but if gone deeper, believing....

the truth would have laid out....the teachings!!

symbols it is, we were blind,

to open the curtain, it took time,

I reached there...you will too,

just believe in them.....or get lost, in the symbols!!

Mirror of life

2011-08-20T01:13:00.000-07:00

Mirror of life,

reflection of oneself,

truth not being hidden,

no veils nor disguise,

just you from the inside!

agree or disagree,

no denying of this,

realize, you may not....

revelation on your part,

it will be, staring!!

Mirror you see,

its only you,

one is watching,

No escape nor excuse,

just the character of your knowing!

the things you learn,

parts choose to ignore,

memories that evoke,

joy or pain at heart,

this could be, remembrance!!

Mirror that takes,

stand on your perception,

eyes that submerged,

ocean of experiences,

to deep inside...the soul!

to know the ultimate,

achieve your goal,

meditate to oneself,

or be conscious ways,

this would be, yours.......

eternal bliss, liberation within!!

just life......

2011-08-16T05:38:00.000-07:00

hey friends, Its a long time since I had written something....life is a little hectic these days, with wards to attend and exam so near, isn't some relaxed phase of mind to write poetry....

And then my day to day activities are not much fun to know either.....to prescribe medications to patients, measure blood pressure, insert Ryle's tube and catheter in hospital, definitely not a interesting thing to know....is it?

Then we have the Raksha Bandhan,Independence day and now today,its Anna's Fast and house arrest...a lot have been going on these days...such an interesting stuff...

So, after all these works, my 2 months of medicine internship are over and I can at least write something for my blog, something for the recent things and here I am. A small poetry, to start with though....hope you like it!

I have seen the world,

the Nation that stands,

the people it have....

the festivals being there,

celebration of life!

I have seen the hope,

the problems we face,

the sins we have.....

the truth being there,

being hidden from sight!

I have seen it all,

the emotions we felt,

the guilt we have....

the remorse being there,

just a little more to go!!

kya likhu..

2011-07-12T05:57:00.003-07:00

kya likhu,

batein kuch tumhari,

batein kuch hamari,

soch anokhi,

ya yadein purani!!

kya likhu,

har baat mein chupi kuch sachai,

kuch achi to kuch buri,

bas tum hum mein hai duriyan,

barna ander to basa hai wahi!!

kya likhu,

bas dhund raha hun sabd,

panktiyan kuch aisi,

bas jo man ko samjhaye,

nahi to dil ko chhu jaye!!

kya likhu,

kuch naya ho to batao,

prasn ke uttar mangbao,

cheeze jo na badle,

rishte kuch naye banbao!!

kya likhu..

2011-07-12T05:57:00.001-07:00

So I asked..

2011-07-03T03:53:00.000-07:00

Questions, puzzles all around,
as I sat wondering,
answers, logic all confusing,
doubting my own tries.
So I asked...
thoughts that emerge,
things needing explanation,
wanting my time to spare!!

I ask my presence,
the life that I got,
I ask the unimaginable,
so be the God.
the nature be there,
the system we adhere,
the society, the customs,
the relations we so care!!

So I sat on the bench,
alone with myself to be company,
the trees by my side,
and the grasses on my feet.
may be I was daydreaming,
or being engrossed in the thoughts,
time moved on, so the world,
the answers still not come!!

So I asked...
the reasons,the cause,
the moments that lost,
the explanation it brought.
the bench getting wet,
and skin felt cold,
the darkness that followed,
the mind that got blank.

I do have my opinions,
but there's a lot more,
the tryst would come again,
the strife will continue,
but for now I retire,
giving my mind some rest,
emptying the bench, plants below it...
for some new one to take his time!!

So I asked...
is it time,
to return from where I come,
to the world now...where I belong!!

missing my teenager years.....

2011-06-27T10:30:00.000-07:00

Down the streets,
along the lanes,
footsteps we took,
fun we had,
the morning jog,
the evening talks,
the days we spent,
and the life we meant.

missing those moments,
or the time I always want,
the life I never had,
of being a teenager!!

Hangout around the stores,
words with a coffee sip,
a visit to the movie hall,
or just a crazy drive....
a hug on early meets,
goes with a moonlight kiss,
the phone calls and the sms,
charmed with the talk so sweet,

missing those moments of first love,
the adventure, the jovial days,
the life that I dream to have,
of being a teenager!!

Everything could be so new,
new be the individuality,
the attitude, assertion,
new being the responsibility,
learning the tricks,
the game of life,
the carelessness,experimentation,
and showing the world what I got.

missing the chances I left,
the opportunities I never got,
the life I had desired for myself,
of being in my teenager years........ : )

** Not the whole view of mine, just a little frustration talking...from my medical years!! :) :)

A day

2011-06-03T04:57:00.000-07:00

I was listening to you,
lying on the soft grass,
with your lovely talks,
and some mischievous touch,
getting immersed in my dream.

Fresh with the morning dew,
your face being so charming,
with those sparkling eyes,
and your tenacious tries,
make me forget my things!!

resting under a tree shed,
hiding from the sun rays,
as you were reading the book,
giving your innocent look,
brings the tranquility within me.

the evening does came,
inviting as the sun sets,
for a little time to spend,
sitting on the wooden bench,
just being you and me!!

and so, our eyes met,
waiting a sweet embrace,
we were watching the stars,
with the moon so far,
your head on my shoulder.

so, the day does end,
those moments well spent,
but the night is still there,
and a lot to be shared,
between us....as we were there!!

Go VillAGE

2011-05-28T00:10:00.000-07:00

Well friends,

I was just thinking...sometimes, this Patriotic side of mine take over me and then I just think what could be done to save India. When we really think like this we think Corruption, poverty, terrorism, Pakistan, China, Army....and the list goes on. But this time, a different idea took over.

Just think why being the largest in cultivable land, a rich tradition and beautiful places in our country, we lack behind in the world..No one wants to live in the village..and all the migration thing. Why does it happens? because of gross misuse and inaction by us. Every one thinks of making the City world standard..No one thinks the same for the village. A private partnership in such field could do wonders but then our politician only think of Industries and mining in village in the name of private sect er...as this are even if short term..can keep their pockets warm!

So what's a Go VillAGE inc? A multi state or multi village private sector which could promote and develop the Indian Village in a systemic and scientific way...So that the villagers, the private company could benefit from this symbiosis and also serves the Nation. It will also protect the environment. Say organic Farming, village marts and tourism of these villages from those tired City peoples, Water harvesting, Solar power..proper utilisation of Village farm lands, making pond for Fish Farming...these are all plans which need money and only a rich businessman or Government body could do this...In this age of corruption, we can't expect the same from the Government, so public private partnership could do!

A green bank, where the farmers could deposit their lands...means, as farm points depending on the size of land...then they were also given work in their own field and whatever seeds are planted/ harvested were then distributed to the farmers according to the farm points and work points they acquire...it also means work for farmers and steady income. There will also by guarantee of good harvest as the company will do its best by using proper seed, protecting the farm and great harvest due to proper water supply. The land mass will definitely be bigger because I know a lot of land being wasted by village farmers in making boundaries for their small lands ...and there would be No need of boundaries. Land will remain in the name of farmers but they can't withdraw it in between. Just like we do with the money in the bank...like safe deposits!

The company will also renovate the village in such way that it look proper village but with all modern facilities too like electricity, toilets, television. It could make the proper roads..create guest house for tourism purpose..establish small village marts as a market for traditional village goods. To develop Vidyalaya/schools, which teaches everything and create awareness about Indian glorious past...Gurukul system and teaches Indian ethos to children or to the visitors too.

It will also establish Ponds, Animal farms, Fruit trees and recruit village people as workers...The company would sell these products and get the profit....and slowly and steadily the village will develop, It will stop Migration, stop inflation, No farmer deaths...and then there would be more Look Village policy!...And this time not for industrialisation or mining. The villagers don't have to leave their land too!!

These might be dreams but there are lot of Billionaire out there...they they could at least spare a million for this noble cause and to do some business which could actually serve the Nation...What use does buying IPL teams, Foreign hotels?? Anyway just an idea...Hope you like it!!

its the thing they call....LOVE!!

2011-05-23T02:26:00.000-07:00

hey friends..

I had never been to something romantic in my poetry's..so, trying a little for that...a new venture, a poetry or lyrics of some song...still trying one..:) :)

its my early days,
a little too far,
and I am waiting for you,
looking out from my car...

the sun rays falling,
to the grass below,
so I hope for me,
just be sitting there with you ...

for those warm touch of your hands,
and the wet kisses on lips,
or just be lying in our bed,
talking in silence with our eyes.

Do I wish too far,
or a little desire,
holding your hand,
hiding you in my heart.

I want to be with you,
to be there for you,
a feel from within,
the thirst of my soul..
its the thing they call....LOVE!

you were tickling me,
or some sweet pokes,
the lips got widen,
as you make a laugh,

the time do stop,
the moments got frozen,
just we, in the world,
and everything got lost.

For those times we spend,
and the embrace in between,
or just chatting of life,
being at peace in mind.

Do I ask for more,
or a little hope,
walking by your side,
in the cold moonlight.

I want to be with you,
to be there for you,
a feel from within,
the thirst of my soul..
its the thing they call....LOVE!!

SO, I am waiting alone,
for the time to come,
to realize all dreams,
to feel the thing they call...Love.

something I missed

2011-05-14T05:27:00.000-07:00

life is not that rewarding...na? Sitting on a sofa....at veranda, brooding about how's the time is passing...suddenly realising that you are getting older but you hadn't lived your younger days enough...Story of many goal oriented guy out there ....they are so focused that they forget, a lot of life they are missing! tried to write something of this

sitting on the porch, I watched..
evening and the sunset,
the breeze felt so cold,
so be in my heart....

The days are going so slow,
or dry, are the seasons,
the time has just freezes,
or just my mind got stalled...

do I miss something,
spark that I do wish,
someone that I have been waiting for,
or just a change in air!!

young are those days,
played, or gone for a tuition,
mindless exploring of new place,
or be lazy in my home....

curious were those days,
dreaming big, amazed by new things,
new sparks of attraction,
the desire, the thought it brings...

but still studies and school,
and then home and tuition,
running all time, closing my eyes,
had I missed the station...of my young life!!

and on the porch,
I was asking myself,
have I missed some part,
guess it was not something I cared...
or something deep in my heart?

with friends, to the beach...

2011-05-07T04:50:00.000-07:00

thrill,
that coming my way,
trees waving over me,
So was I, on the road.....
My bike and some friends!!

Speed or race,just not all,
Nor ego or pride to fall,
we wanted to get it on,
the guy in us to have it done......
and the road was abandoned, only for us!!

our shouts and small talks,
moving along the Mahanadi's Bank,
Winds that push us back,
with its harsh blow to our face...
but that was Lot's of fun!!

standing at side of a bridge...
watching as the river flows,
feeling the force of the roar,
and taking some photographs....
just to capture the moments!!

Got to visit a near Beach,
and to bath with the summer sun,
running and playing on wet sands,
breaking or holding some hands......
just to heighten our spirits!!

Is it Innate, is it freedom,
or some crazy human stuffs,
is it dream, or some hope,
or to avoid the daily stress...
but it just on my writing!!

a little vacation on cards....
to feel all above..with some friends!! Nice try na??

Exordium--the dawn of hopes!!

2011-05-02T04:37:00.000-07:00

hello friends...

this week was fun...and we had a H.S function in Friday and Saturday!...a function by our batch of interns/ house surgeons and also the welcome to our juniors!

We had this Intra class Cricket match all the week...from morning 7 am to 12 pm....in two batches..15 over match...It is our last year together so, we wanted to have some fun this function!
Our junior batch prepared fashion show and dances for the function ..which we really enjoyed it..

Function titled "Exordium--dawn of new hope", depicting the new life we are stepping to, so the juniors....our welcome batch. Our classmate too participated in Fashion show and dance show..and they were great too.....juniors had done lot of hard work to make the function a success...watching their and the applause they getting ....some part of mine too wanted to be part of the stage but then, I got this stage fear [:P] and better be a audience and support a show than be a part of it and make it worse...I say so becoz there were some amateur dancer and singer in juniors who really bored us...still they got the confidence to be on the stage..and I appreciate that!

we also gave welcome to our juniors...each senior giving a gift to a junior...then had dinner...and in the end came the best part....the DJ night...MRC

as the music came flowing..so are we started dance on the beats! The guys were on one side..and the gals on the other..and slowly, everyone joined and had fun..some guys took their chances and flirted with the junior gals :P and danced with them..and some just have 'drinks' and swaying like branches of tree..some showing their dancing bones..trying to impress the opposite sex and most of all doing our trademark barati dance!!

Anyway, I had fun..lot of jumping ..so much so that my legs started paining!!....after hat..at 4.00 am we went to our room, on my way, I asked my friend what is he thinking...he replied--this is the last time we all are together..then No one could meet with one another..each one busy with their life...and he will miss that...and may be that's the essence of that function--to celebrate our togetherness ....for the last time!!

To keep in back in our memory!!

I need to say a line for this--

doesn't matter if seeds sprout, sampling to trees but whats more important is the shades it gives, food to eat :)

and this could be our motto to life?

just some writing

2011-04-24T06:03:00.000-07:00

Hello friends,

Hope all well from your side...Mine are not so good :) :)
anyway, its ages since I had written something about my life, I always tried some poetry's....though not as picturesque as a lot out their...I do keep it simple, may be I don't have much words in my vocabulary to play with :P

so, talking about my creative self...I do limit myself in few aspects of life..deeper, just too direct in words...to tell others what I observed, felt. I have seen lot others out there in blogger, too imaginative and expressive in their pieces. I had tried something different, but then returned from where I have started. You can never leave the actual path of your beginning, even though you have modified your approach...that's something defines you right?

Anyway,I was never good at grammars , but still, its one of my hobby, to keep something at hands....its someway of taking your point out from the life...your takes.

Its a good way, to keep track at your feelings, reading books or writing something helps you some way or other. Its true, writing could be boring, but then, its refreshing too. Take an example of today, I had my exams on morning...doing some social networking in the evening and then thought of blogging something but no subject what so ever come to my mind for poetry..and here I am writing just what's coming in my mind!!

its all about creativity,
to keep alive the imagination,
the fire, the design,
to express what you got inside.

You may be good,
or just being different,
but then, that's what you...
be the real world, or be virtual!

just some writing for me,
to refresh my mind,
to represent what I believe,
or my takes on the life..... :) :)

Survival

2011-04-17T04:21:00.000-07:00

survival....
the strength within,
the cry not heard of,

the fight everyday,
the unrest, the patience,
life, so hard fought for!!

had no time,
to watch others,
to feel these moments...
the emotions, craving,
to enjoy the blessings,
wish to be someone like you!!

you think its fun,
or you are the only one,
but a lo are there doing the same!
we run in despair,
your passion, our dare,
the pain , distress we felt....do you care??

yes, its survival...
or the fight to be fittest,
our endurance not thought of,

the dream, the duty,
the fear of fading away,
state of our living... truth so far off!!

Still I see,
changes I perceive,
I look around...find new hope,
will you be there,
keeping your promise,
so big responsibility to care off!!

walking with the heat...

2011-04-08T04:09:00.000-07:00

Hello friends....its long time since I had written something....surely, time and work really don't work up together!! Having some tough time out there..studies and the scorching heat!!

So, here's another one from my side...

its too hot inside...
burning deep withing me,
tears in my eyes...as I look around.

searching for something,
there is emptiness somewhere,
what was it, what I wanted,
the one that will satisfy my heart!

walking , this shadeless world,
facing the heat on my side,
had I be alone for long?
or I was waiting for the right one....

tired, fatigue on my face,
tiny droplets of sweats,
dry mouth and cracked lips,
deserted , far away from anyone!!

then the breeze came,
or the falling of afternoon loo..
few clouds, drifting towards me,
spreading those blankets of love on me...

I was elated, happy of joy inside,
the emptiness recedes, for something new,
and I saw, what I was dying to find...
A stall of ....fruit juice, Lassi and cold drinks!!

Thank God ...now I could quench my thirst,
drink to heart content...
really had a strenuous day,
and I entered inside the stall!! [:P][:D]

you just get along

2011-03-28T03:47:00.000-07:00

listen...the whispers, the music,
feel..the vibration, the touch,
see...those colors, the patterns,
perceive...the fragrance around you,

experience, get acquainted...
understand the story of life as you go....
to choose or to get parted,
the places you are familiar with.

And you just get along!!

don't know what you get of you,
done with intent or view,
decide or just loose to fate,
find what had been reached by few!

words, thoughts, action....
war, peace, love and hate,
anger, compassion allowed to one,
still living for life, work for living.

confused? but then you carry along!!

each time you ponder,
or you take a side,
but again there you are,
same eat, sleep, live routine ....

need to grow up for the moment,
or just be making one's position,
the train drives on with the steam,
and the direction with the stations.

tired though you drive along!!

to praise or to criticize,
some ego and some pride,
take you on, get so far,
mold you from inside out....

so, do you have time,
or the senses you had,
each one helped yet not last,
and I blabber all this for you.......

got it?? still you read along!! [:P][;)]

Don't mind..it's just Holi !!

2011-03-19T04:05:00.000-07:00

the joy of colors,
the texture, the smells,
the power, the freedom,
the water, the joy.....
don't mind ...it's just Holi !!

All the friends come,
move around, lets have fun,
spray water, balloons on hand,
color them all, in front of us....
don't mind...it's just Holi !!

Some ask us to withheld..
fall back, be safe,
just a tikka on head, small touch on cheek,
but do we listen, we want more,
don't mind...it's just Holi !!

just play Holi, take our chance,
make new relations, new friends,
may also search girls on line,
or just be mock fight or drills....
don't mind..it's just Holi !!

Yes, time changed, so the rules,
the choice, the time we had,
still we stick to roots,
as it give us the pleasure, so to others.....
just don't mind..it's just Holi !!

Simply put, have fun,
with family, had a great time,
with friends, meet new,
don't grow up,be in child play....
Don't mind....it's just Holi !!

Happy Holi friends!!

the wolf's howl

2011-03-13T04:29:00.000-07:00

Its the dead night,
and the moon so bright...
somewhere wolves at distance,
howling at the sight.

are the sad or just happy,
sighing heavily or singing merrily?
or they are calling their kind,
to make the pack happening!

some say, they being the messenger,
to contact the dead ones, the soul,
or make the moon to sleep,
waiting for night to fall.

Do they prey in the night,
may be a simple fight,
in those dark shadows on trees....
on the rocks, at the height!

they are just formations of mist,
lively or creepy for time being,
their presence so fascinating,
folktales , characters on their name.

So, this dead still night,
echoed with those wails,
the wolfs, their howl....
had I been mesmerized,
by these nature's wonder at play?

Alone...

2011-03-05T04:35:00.000-08:00

on the boat,
along the sea...
and the moonlight over me....
I watched the stars,
looked so far,
in all the tranquility, wished someone be there with me!!

on the bench,
at a garden,
all these flower plants around me...
I watched the birds,
looked the branches of trees,
in all the colors, wished someone to appreciate it with me!!

edge of a cliff,
on the mountain,
all I see is clouds so far away...
I shout, feel the adrenaline rush,
hear echos, the vertigo on,
yet, wanted someone to be thrill with me!!

one my own,
walking on a street,
and I thought a lot, emotions in heart...
I was happy, having some fun,
or just for a hangout,
still, I would love someone to accompany me!!

I have my worries,
part of joy or sorrow,
living my life as it is.....
the experience I gain,
live for the moments or moments to live,
and I wish someone to share it with me!! :) :) :)

the cobweb of life

2011-02-27T04:06:00.000-08:00

the cobweb,

its encircling me,
these silky threads of life,
the shiny ones invite...
but pains, deep down inside!!

all those glitters, calls,
to compete, exceed in goals,
no end of the gain, it explore....
taking me farther from my soul!!

these webs, being so sticky,
so difficult to free from it's hold,
everything so dull, loosing focus....
entangling within, down it pulls!!

Why, what...my creativity not works,
imagination stale,mind so blank,
had I lost myself or being at spotlight...
or just some emptiness taking the toll!!

Yes, some freedom, all I expect,
frustration, stress not more to take,
the spider of life, has it's effect..
but still I could untangle, run away!!

The cobweb, weaving around us,
threads holds, tightening the grip,
but the courage, it's not weak...
I will overcome...these silky strings??

Living the way I do

2011-02-20T00:11:00.001-08:00

Hey friends....tried some new things in my poetry from another perspective.....hope you like it!!!

Living the way I do

Fun, love ,friendship desired,
hang-out, travel all places,
what are the worries do I ask?
Its just what I wish for you,
Living....the way I do!!

haven't thought of future,
not much time to waste,
this moment is eternal for me...
Why do you brood sitting at home?
just enjoy your time....the way I do.

The school were for learning to score,
college to bunk, Comment on girls,
not work,its just great vacation to spend!
Why are you serious...so tensed?
just relax a bit...way I do!!

No..Yes, Being so confused?
Trying new things,thrills that work,
why are you so tired...be sporty with me,
come one...life has so much to give,
don't fear ...be open like the way I do!!

I know you have problems,
may be not lucky as I am,
but still I call, you are my friend,
be with me and you will start living...
Yeah, Living the way I do!!!

plight of the Birds

2011-02-12T03:24:00.000-08:00

Hello friends...
today I really want to say something about the plight of birds in cities, like the disappearing sparrows, and many more common birds, which made the morning beautiful with their chirruping...which when make nests in tree and fly in unison made a beautiful natural portrait to look to...something which we and our future generation got to miss now!!
We have this tall tree inside our hostel's garden...which had just shed all it's leaves looking bare but when filled up by all the birds (may be the only place in our college with so many birds...we have a large garden)....with their chirruping really elevates the mood.
Here is a poetry I write inspired by this.....

I was glad, pleased to see,
those small cotton balls fluttering around me...
with their dummy fight, pricking,
or their flying spree.

my leaves, my branches spreading,
fruits and flowers all being inviting,
they help me grew over and out,
and are my friends in lonely night.

But now where are you,
the empty nests searches,
so is the deserted view,
what happened ....why did you go?

I am not gone, only afraid,
what to do,not a place is safe,
they kill, take us home,
or they just destroy our nest !

changed our way of living,
those shades, bark, food,
poisoned soil and water we drink...
we wait, hope to swim afloat and not sink!!

These birds, they chirrup make me worry,
their droppings, wastes damages the beauty,
why give them home if it give me money,
Do what's good for me, will not be sorry,

Their sound and flying....how much I miss,
have I gone too far, no return to repent,
undo the loss, barren are the places,
the mere presence would be a bliss!!

Oh me, oh us why we ignored,
should have given a chance,
the tranquility of nature we going to miss,
the joy of watching, hearing and feeling their life.....it's all I wish!
I the bird, the tree , the conscious man ask....how much time we need to realize this fact?

Carefree world

2011-02-05T04:13:00.000-08:00

So friends...here I am, after lot of gap, Now being a medical intern, busy schedules, not much time to write things other than some of my poetry....So, these few months have been special to me....

My first income...even if a stipend of 9000 bucks but still very useful for us now..in student days, to purchase books, cloths and ya Mobile too...I had been little responsible now..also in these month two of my friends are married, even though they are 2-3 yr older than me..[:P]

so, I am here with some of my experiences.....Normal routines and then ward visits...I have seen lot of emotions out there in the hospital...and then...the pain they felt....also the stress of appearing All India PG entrance, to study a lot...yes, their are time for fun too but it is slowly decreasing in frequency ...so, that's when I do write few of my poetry for venting out, for experimenting....more ever just for maintaining a hobby!....

so, friends here's another one , just something different I wanted to show;

They laughed as they speak,
they run within a flick,
they play on those land freely,
won't stop even if it's a bit hilly....
they sought their lungs out,
give raw emotion without a doubt,
they fall but No time to cry,
they reach out rather being shy!!

No one stops them, nor one care,
the whole place is their own, so they dare,
they live for moment, happy to share,
No price being tagged, all are fare...
Day goes so be the night,
time remains still, so their life,
just basic works done, to be alive,
It's all for joy, fun, do they strive.

Yes, the innocence is obvious,
the freedom so infectious,
No worries, no sadness they feel,
It's just not the way, do they deal....
I just watched them, thinking,
envied their life within, though winking,
so free, so much happy, they seems,
all those smile coming out as they beams!!

yes, carefree , joyous , fun ... with worries, stress being none,
I want that life, such carefree world for my own!!

Confession of a foodie :P

2011-01-29T21:51:00.000-08:00

I am foodie,
and I am proud to be,
with flavors and fragrance many,
I would love any new eatable wannabe!!

Not that I skip the regulars,
or be mad for some junk ones,
but it's the desire to taste new,
that make me check up the menu!!

Indian, Continental or Chinese,
just serve it on my table,
anything Veg or Non-veg,
will give equal respects to the label!!

I think of foods, how many I could have,
in this ocean of recipes, which one be my next,
I visit places, locations on my map,
each time expecting something better...new feathers on my cap!!

Fool are those who eat monotonous,
then why are we here in this world?
God has sent us here, with such appetite...
why waste our time in restricting one!!

Yes, price a problem,
and then there is traveling,
but then, Nothing comes free,
doing a little hard-work won't affect if,
The return would fulfill my belly...
yes, this is the confession .....of a foodie!

Crossroads

2011-01-23T03:45:00.000-08:00

On the crossroad,
directions unknown,
and there was I,
looking on...to the horizon.
Had I been there for long,
or was just on my own,
moving on,looking out,
believing me for what I got!

It was a hot day,
harsh were the sun rays,
morning was just a memory,
the fun, the fresh being the meadow!
the path half taken,
still half needed to go,
decisions to take up soon,
yet here I was in another crossroad.

there were many, many yet to come,
my mind, heart, and the faith being tested,
but still a little rest could do,
moment to recall, to feel the past.
people, companions came and go,
teaches us a thing or two,
but in heart we got to know..
destiny is one, alone had to go!

Cool breeze touches my face,
cold earth in my feet,
evening sets in, calling me..
more path to cover, something new to discover,
so, I went, took a road I needed to,
hoping to get some, or fulfill inside,
looking back a little, crossroads of past,
waiting for a new one to rest ...to decide....where to go!!

Just questions :)

2011-01-12T04:43:00.000-08:00

what I become,
what I tried to be,
had my responsibility is on to me?

what I thought,
what I expected to be,
had my experience not enough to me?

what I desired,
what I wanted to be,
had I accomplished what I got in me?

what I am doing,
what are my actions to be,
had I performed much I could ever be?

What I perceived,
what influence I had on me,
had I imparted on others the skills within?

what I had the aim,
or the path of destiny to be,
had I found or being near to realize the true me?

yes, these are the few..
or the questions you would ask,
but still its you, thoughts, acts, desires,
that make us what I wanted or deserved....
nearer or farther to the destiny, connect to the one...we ever be!!

just a few thoughts on this day of Swami Vivekananda's Birthday...and National youth day!!

first flight..

2011-01-08T03:05:00.000-08:00

it's morning, the sun so early...
or just my eyes want it to be,
fresh air in my lungs,
swelling as the sky up there,
preparing for my first flight!!

branches feels so new,
old barks falling though few,
supporting the huge ambitions,
helping me as it knew,
steering me to this flight.

I took my stand, ready to take off..
little wayward but still on path,
wings resist as the gravity calls,
falling in trajectory to the ground..
but I hold on...my rebellious flight.

the wind wails, fierce it becomes,
the sky so blue...reaching the clouds,
everything so different, the freedom exhilarating
feeling the cold, the excitement so more..
and there was I on my fearless flight..

but someone is calling...asking my attention,
my family and friends on my side..asking to return,
"you have done great, now back to home...
its the only place you have to come"
thus ended my first, my own first flight!!

New year

2011-01-03T03:40:00.000-08:00

So, New year came, a little celebration, unending resolutions, some hopes and some plans being made.

I had some fun myself..parties and hang-out....whatever we as a youngster take as fun!...but that's for me, and most of our kind!! Lets come to a common thought we all had..full of well wishes, greeting cards, sweets and you know what!
For me, I had spent hours just calling friends and messaging those whoever come to my mind, anyone left out means lot of accusation and hurt, but it doesn't matter when its done for a day..Someone is at Nightclub, pub, or a group party...family outing or some new innovation, New year is a time people have taken for celebration, though sometimes I think as in India, why actually we follow so much of English Calender!!

Confused? well we lot are because most of us don't know our original calender, our new year...you may say all over world, new year is like this only..but most of them are descendants from Europe...Chinese have there own New year, Then someone will say that we have different states each having there own new year/day for celebration...some take Diwali as new year, Baisakhi somewhere, Hindus have April 4 say falgun purnami and many others but still as a country we hadn't develop ours!!

Then it occurs to me....why should I think this lot, If there is a celebration then enjoy it...We in India love holidays and celebration but anyway, we should have some new year for ourselves..but till then, this is our new year...and my resolution would be....
stop think these nonsense and do some work!! :) :P
what about yours?

the year end..

2010-12-26T05:07:00.000-08:00

the year....at its end,
time leaving , not to be back,
was it memories..good or bad,
a new resolutions to look ahead.

so, is this a celebration,
or there's party to have some,
just to enjoy the moments,
jubilant is the nation.

what about us..we people,
everyone with there life to be lived,
fun to have, dreams to achieve,
set some goals to perceive.

but still its a day,few to pass,
and there it is opening eyes,
new dawn of a new year....
just to bring in new things from it's box.

the year will go, as the new comes,
we stand there, with ourselves,
passing by, will be our world,
along with we will decide.

we could do anything,
party, sleep, or hang-out,
resolution to make or break,
and there are we all looking forward....
for a new year to come...new hopes, new aspirations, to come!!

Patterns for you

2010-12-18T04:35:00.000-08:00

The shapes and the sizes,

also colors so different,

and they are all being present...

if we just look around!!

I see faces, I see life,

or just a simple sign,

I see structures, I see vibe,

and also the mature of mine.

Its on the walls, it's on the sky,

or you could observe it in daily life,

It's in your dream, it's in your aim,

or it's the destiny, for which you thrive.

Isn't it apparent, we so blind,

or may be the time haven't arrive,

but the patterns still emerging,

keeping them all in your sight.

You may say it's all fiction,

or just a figment of imaginative mind,

but it's not me, it's not about you,

It's just the pattern of our view.

Patterns it is, we just need to look,

and search for some of unanswered thoughts,

you may not find, it's so abstract,

but still there is always a pattern for you!!

patriots...come on!

2010-12-11T02:42:00.000-08:00

Patriots, bring all..

competition calling, your people asking,

what if fallen behind,

come on and lead us in front.

we know money matters,

also a easy life we ask for,

but still there should be a cause,

one should stand for!!

yes, enjoy your part,

also run for your desire,

only making some changes,

taking en route to your country.

globalization, a world, it should be,

but forced interests are on us,

what way, it will take,

up or down is all we go!!

patriots, that's what all I ask for,

because, in your heart, you know..

this is what you ever wanted to be

just a little blurred it's becoming !!

patriotism say a lot about country's interest,

all we talk but little we do,

why should others do, it's your home too,

don't you know what we are going through?

past can't be changed but future so alive,

just the present is rotting away,

holding it is all we doing..

so, just don't sit back and watch,

come out, it's what a patriot in you wants!!

Consequence...a story

2010-12-06T04:38:00.000-08:00

its wet and cold,

as these irregular projections hits me...

and there I was fallen,

tired and exhausted.

I couldn't walk, not anymore,

fought so much, weak I become,

sensation lost..feeling so numb,

waiting for someone, a hand to hold.

It was never like this,

it never meant to be,

there were riches, fame,

that's all surrounding me.

every thing good belongs to me,

exotic, rare collection being,

dreams had no place..no time to think,

ohh...those times, are all I have seen.

its full moon now, wind so harsh,

have I being ignorant of this fact,

tides come and go...sound so more..

difficult to concentrate or hear my thoughts.

everything was easy then...not so now,

there new emotions and grief coming how?

introspective, or just memories,

its only the results of the seeds I sow.

I had my chance, but so ignorant,

had my pride or ego making me truant?

now, being defeated, waiting to die,

alone, battered, tired fallen on this island.

I should have stopped...the path I had taken,

but near ones too busy, blinded by status,

I would have changed but no time to repent,

still being enlightened after all this.

My story, my thoughts will go with me,

but the reality will remain so be,

and I will see, wish to god,

No other one would face the consequence like me...

I, me and mine...

2010-11-28T09:27:00.000-08:00

walking on the road,

alone, in the evening,

bundling out of some thoughts....

touching my mind like a breeze.

just to make rhyme,

or a few clever words,

I tried to assemble,

like joining of many strings.

the things I had ever spoken,

or used it on whole personality,

how much selfish it being wanting...

I, me and mine??

It's what I thought every day,

the wishes and desire built in,

I deserve for more...or more I want,

looking up around the lavish life.

envy, jealousy or pure greed,

but it could be innocent curiosity,

still it all come back to me,

as I walk on the road, thinking.

may be its not only me,

it's the introspection of many,

such is the awareness in inequality,

that not one is left untouched within.

abstract thoughts, it may be,

or it's just my selfishness,

what wrong did I make thinking....

I, me and mine??

the way ahead

2010-11-27T05:17:00.000-08:00

the way ahead,

and I walk,

steps by steps,

strides by strides,

and I move on..

the stones do come,

so are the thorns,

but I had the flowers,

picked from the path,

and I hang on..

I listened the says,

I saw the world,

the thought I had,

woven around in my mind,

and I gain on...

sometimes I faltered,

patience got tested,

the blessings and wishes besides me,

such was the goodwill it brought,

and I achieves on....

yes...I looked back for a while,

counting expectations and accomplishments,

but the memories so sweet,

the attachments I made,

and I cherished on....

flow of music...

2010-11-20T22:55:00.000-08:00

flow of music...

going through my mind,

evoking countless emotions..

some new, some old.

the pitch of the melody,

or the rhythm with it,

the sound so different,

hearing, as I sway.

countless feelings it stored,

countless are formed new,

but still its there,

waiting for me to appreciate it!

its the flow that works,

as I close my eyes,

something changes in mind,

the hidden desires or thoughts being.

each one is different,

as I craved for more,

satisfy, I will not become,

till the great minds are at work.

flow of music...

that touches your heart, your soul,

and you admire the genius,

that such things exist in our world...

......just enjoy the music..whatever you like.... :) :)

missing myself...

2010-11-01T06:05:00.000-07:00

missing myself...

the worry, the stress,

the desires, the wishes,

or just being living...

missing myself...

watching movies or t.v,

browsing net or be lazy,

even just walking...watching others.

missing myself..

brooding for things I don't have,

wanting to have it all,

or just doing some window-shopping.

missing myself...

watching kids play at school,

the guys hanging out,

or just bunking, having time-out.

missing myself,

when I think, I feel,

whether do improve my skill...

or just being idle ...working out this for a good read....[:)]

I am

2010-10-19T05:48:00.000-07:00

not like a dream,

nor in the reality,

I am what I am,

not like a flower,

nor the hard stone,

I being what I had been.

yes, you want different,

or you have some choice,

but I can give only me...

you can have sweets,

or some spicy bites,

but these flavor's aren't your life!

can't be the rain,

to sprinkle your face,

but be the river to be beside you...

can't be the words,

that charm your heart,

but be the whisper...to guide your path.

not like the winds,

nor like the breeze,

I am what my mind meant to be.

not like some stories,

nor like your movies,

I am what a guy should be.....[:)]

It's a promise...

2010-10-15T03:23:00.000-07:00

Hey friends...another try of something different ,

It's a promise...It will be,

but not a believe meant to be,

I know its difficult but true...

forget nor forgiving are you?

but still I say what I do,

its a mistake I made too,

but now things changed...

I had repent the past!!

It was a path not to be taken,

realization eluded me,

but I failed, I faltered....

will you not support me?

True that I was on fault,

true I don't deserve you,

still it was our love..pure,

will you get detached from it?

Not your memory, nor life,

a punishment you shouldn't like,

so why so away..so refrain.....

can't I deserve another chance?

yes the pain is mutual,

the hatred is not desirable,

yet time will heal..will change us...

just come once.

explaining will not do,

trust once gone can't be brought ,

but still I have faith....

a new beginning is what I hope for.

It's a promise...and it will be!!

Its not about Ayodhya !!

2010-10-03T23:59:00.000-07:00

Well...recently the Allahbad High court decision about the Ayodhya verdict had brought wide and varied reaction all around the country..some had used it for petty dirty politics to get hold of there vote bank..some just wanted to show off..how good they were by condemning or praising it..and a lot more. Still most of them see what I call a very Narrower picture of such a verdict.

Lets take it as this..We know the History..NOT PROOF...but faith that Lord Ram was born there as in Ramayana..and there is PROOF that there was a old temple beneath Babri Masjid and PROOF that Babar did destroyed a lot of temples and built Mosque on it.So, From the start the Hindus felt being the victim and there were tensions which led to declaration of the site as disputed by the British. After Independence, when the Hindu population was more, this was gone for court settlement and the media and government took a lot time for its verdict as we have this tendency of Minority appeasement....This was a misconception which still remains here as Muslims are always thought to be the Victim..as propagated by their religious preachers, by the Government for vote bank politics. So, it indirectly fueled the Hindu believers, as the government never took there side even if they were the majority..leading to 1992 incidence by Kar sevaks, Babri Masjid demolition..No other way they thought the Ram Mandir could be built on the sacred site as the administration were blind for votes.
Then there were Godhra riots sparked due to burning of Kar sevaks in the train, Mumbai bomb blasts, Increase in terrorism just by showing demolition of Babri Masjid..demolition of many thousand of temples in Pakistan and Bangladesh.. No one cared to take a look at the History!!

Now coming to broader part...Hinduism was once the most prominent religion of the world..from it...as a influence, Buddhism, Jainism, Sikhism, and all the religion have somewhere or less got some influence from Hinduism..you just can't deny that but, its influence decreased, once covering all of southeast Asia, it is now restricted India and Nepal..While, Islam and Christian flourished...do you know why, they expanded, converted both by hook or crook...Once True India, from Afghanistan to Thailand and more being only Hindu region, it's now covered by Islam and Christians, and Now even Hindus would fear to say there country was predominantly Hindu for the fear of being Branded as communal..Other religion don't understand or they don't want to..why should they, everyone need there profit..Why else after the verdict would anyone say Muslims are CHEATED by having 1/3RD of a sacred place of Hindus and most of Indians supported it,,as they think themselves secular..ITS NOT SECULARISM, its foolishness. Hindus are always tolerant and there religion accept all religion but that doesn't mean other religion try to sabotaged the oldest and most true heritage of such a great country...they just don't understand...its the religion the heritage that there forefathers conserved..What will I say if people are so obsessed with secularism..that the many firm Hindu believer say Pseudo-secularism. On such avoidance and ignorance of people, Religious fanaticism will only grow..and I now understand why..

There are a lot of incidence where a place being sacred to Hindus have a temple along with a Mosque built there...and someone just suggested to do the same in Ayodhya just because there was a mosque built by a cruel leader some 400 yr ago destroying something that was many thousand year old...holding faith of many millions..Let me ask them to give a single example of building a Temple, in Muslim dominated region anywhere in the world along with a Mosque,...answer would be a strict NO and lot of Angry calls..Fatwa and all. Why they want only Hindu be secular, why can't they be the same...But our people, the Hindu majority, the government is blind...I have nothing against the Muslim, what I worry is the survival of Hinduism, If its own people are not supporting it.

Muslims were not the victim here...THEY NEVER WERE..... Ayodhya is not about Lord Ram's temple...its just a symbolism..a sign to show, we need to protect what we are...what we should be. Let all the people, from any religion, being a Indian, protect the very Indianness of you...as all other religion are foreign, all other culture are foreign...What yours is always be yours!!!.....
STOP PRETENDING TO BE SECULAR.......BE SECULAR!!..EQUAL RIGHTS TO ALL RELIGION..OTHERS ARE GETTING IT..LET HINDUISM ALSO HAVE THERE SHARE!!
IT'S NOT ABOUT AYODHYA

trip to Mumbai...

2010-10-02T00:08:00.001-07:00

Hello friends,

I have been gone for a trip to Mumbai for vacation this time..and its what my experience from it..

I have a friend there, working in some software company..working is just what most Mumbaikars are, and it was what I saw there.

Mumbai is divided in many parts..New Mumbai, the suburbs...true there are a lot of big buildings, mall as I had expected but most of it region are like general cities..there is a gap of the common men and the elites...but there are places where this difference doesn't seems to matter!!..Mumbai is really a mixture of all the societies , from different class, from different region and that's what it stands for..the diversity!!...I could see the gujrati, marwari, bihari, south indian..punjabis, lot of foreigners..and it was so common that I didn't got surprised.

So, where was I....my journey ...I prefered the Train journey and it was tiring too. but I loved as the new places come and goes...Stations and Vendors. Reached there in early morning...my friend was waiting there for me..at the station Dadar. we took a local Train to our station Goregaon...Its what so Good about the Transport system..you will get any medium, train, auto, taxi...to anywhere you want..and the cheap alternative was local trains...you have to purchase coupons as a ticket. As I said, we went to our station and then to my friends house through an auto, It was in the suburbs..very much like my place. It was Sunday morning and I didn't have sleep..We met his roommates, all his seniors and had some chat.

My friend and I decided to have a little journey to Gateway to India, after spending some time there we went to Nariman point...we had some time to rest and watch the beauties and the places around...from there we went to visit the Bandra - Worli sea link. Then watched some of the Bollywood star's house..a lot of crowd standing there...even the Auto driver was telling, why the people are mad at watching the star's house even if they know that No was there then...he he

We went to visit the famous Juhu beach, rested there, had Pao bhaji and Kala khatta..its speciality and then some time walking barefoot on the wet sand..then we had our dinner and back to room. Next day was my friend Rupak's office, so I had to wait at home..in evening we went to visit Oberai mall and had some shopping there..had some fun in game centre and ate doughnuts..

as Monday wasn't much fun, Rupak decided to take 2 day break and we planned to see the Elephanta caves and some shopping for my family. Next day, as we decided..we went to Gateway of India...took a ferry and went to visit the Elephanta caves..1hr route to an islands...It was 7.00 pm when we returned...we straight head for the shopping for family. It was 11.00pm when we returned in the room...My return ticket was of next day 21.00pm night so, had a whole day for us. We went to SidhiVinayak for there blessings...we spent some time there returned to the Malls..watched one 3D movie and played some games. Had our lunch there and returned to the room.

It was time for my packing, had my dinner, said goodbye to his roommates..and head straight to the stations...Rupak came with me as I didn't know the new station..Lokmanyatilak terminal..after we reached the station..I asked him to return as was getting late..11.30pm and he had to go to office too, and I went to my berth..had my bag place and watched out of the window.

Good bye Mumbai, I thought...surely I know why people want to come to Mumbai...the place had everything the people want yet a lot was happening beneath the veil of this glamorous world, something only be known if you live their. Its just like ordinary life..anywhere in our country..but what it does have is its own charm. I had memories now..of the crowded local trains..the sea and the buildings..the people, the malls, everyone busy in there own world. Good, I was just a visitor there....who knows what lies else there..the thing I didn't discovered in my 4 day stay!!

The wait

2010-09-23T05:05:00.000-07:00

just a new venture friend...hope its good,

sitting besides the old tree,

standing out on rainy days,

walking on the lonely lane,

speaking those sames words..

hadn't I waited enough??.

I have been there,

things that never be forgotten,

nor I was afraid,

to recall them over again,

hadn't you forgiven??

why so far, so silent,

only those shadows remain,

those cry of the night,

those brood of the day,

hadn't I suffered enough??

Yes I am getting old,

only the figments of memories,

but still you are there deep within,

the love, the caring that we shared,

hadn't the separation so cruel??

Its been late, the darkness arrives,

wait of another day...a day without you,

you are unhappy, angry on me..still you loved me,

leaving me all alone in the world...you went to the god,

a long wait, but we will meet...forever and ever...

humiliation of Sushil kumar

2010-09-15T06:05:00.000-07:00

Just watching the News yesterday. Yes, I do watch news some days in hope of getting something new information. But the stories are as usual...Kashmir burns as people dies..Jatt wanted there reservation...students getting involved in a fight for college elections , then there is cricket or bollywood..

Looks like our media is crazy about politics, and cricket and then bollywood. Politics has just captured the Nations imagination. Then there was news of arrival of Sushil kumar after winning the world championship in wrestling and being met by huge celebration by rejuvenated fans, proud family members and coach. Better ..no politics here...but my happiness was short lived as another controversy struck in!!...Mr. M S Gill sir, the Sports Minister of our country!! and the photo shoot

controversy.

Yes, Mr. Gill wanted all the credit for himself as he literally shoo away the Coach and his family members to have a single photo with the World champion!!...Someone who doesn't even care to receive Sushil kumar at airport or don't know what he did for him before he won Olympic bronze medal!!...And shooing away his coach and family the main contributor of Sushil kumar's success.

It was a great humiliation for both the coach and the player but who cares!!...are we enough patriotic to care???

Why should he care, he is a Politician, the Babu..who are these small villagers and this small coach to stand with him!!...Even if he got Dronacharya award..he is far below him!!

This is the Basic mentality of our Babus and politicians!!..even the one in the Office doesn't care about whats going on under him!...I bet he doesn't even know half the sports person that a common Indian knows!!...Still these guys want there pay hike as they are supreme, Want to get all the credit for any individual Success!!

My basic question remains-----are such guys eligible to run such a responsible post???

After exams

2010-09-10T22:50:00.000-07:00

Hello friends, its been a long time since I had posted something...I just had my exams going on so could give time to the blog...but now I am free and relaxed so, why not write the feel of students after exam?

wanna dance, wanna sing,

travel places or watch movies..

hangout with friends,

talk with girlfriend/boyfriend?

well, the time I have,

the moments to spend!!

watch some TV, play games,

Its my day, the night being mine!!

No sleepless nights,

no tired days,

no strings being tied,

pulling from the behind!!

So, I am confused,

I am bored...

a lot to do..how to start?

or just sleep all the time!!

now missing the college,

all the friends and the fun,

they are away to their homes,

and I don't know what to do!!

so the cycle will repeat,

in college..miss the home

and in home...miss my college,

really its true...isn't it???

well...its one of the views...I bet their are a lot more depending on where your friends are and your plans for the holidays!!...

Ah! the rains...

2010-07-16T06:18:00.000-07:00

Ah! the rains,

the dreams, the pains,

the wish to be fulfilled,

the wait but in vain.

Ah! the rain,

the desire the strains,

the anger of being concealed,

the struggle of being sane.

Ah! the rains,

the beauty, the bane,

the tryst or being jovial,

searching happiness, where it lain.

Ah! the rains,

journey in the wains,

appreciation of being different,

making the heart being fain.

yes! the rains,

the dream, the pain,

the wait, the struggle,

happiness of the main!!

Roomies....

2010-06-27T03:06:00.000-07:00

I was just watching the channel V and its new serials Roomies promo, where a gal writing blog about her roommates and friends...so I thought why not write one of mine...

not that I have some extra-ordinary friends but yet they are different in some way!!...we are a bunch of average guys being friend, we talk, play , study and do what you usually see in boys hostel but still each one of my roommates and friends are unique in some way.

First is Himanshu...or papu as his pet name, "papu can't dance sala" still holds good for him but he his good at studies and yes, papu pass to ho jayega..he he. He has got a unique characteristic shouting tendency..whenever we are busy studying, and a pin drop silence in the room...he would just take hold of something, a pillow, a hairbrush, or a bottle and throw it towards us with a shrilling sound like something of a horror show..he he. Again he also use the same sound when he poke us with his finger on back, sides belly...anywhere just to irritate us or disturb us..not that he use it always, it only help us to forget the boredom in our room..otherwise he got a normal sense of mind . Other times when not studying or irritating us, he would just talk in phone with his girlfriend.

Second comes Sambit or we call him Sambha, Suna or anything we want. His speciality is dirtyness...just count them...doesn't wash is cloths, keep them for months in his cupboard or say dustbin..eats Pan masala(Safal), spit from our windows making it little dirty..just opposite of Papu, the most cleanest person in our hostel..(use branded creams, powder, face wash...always maintain and wash his cloths, bedsheets).

Where was I?..yes, Sambha..he is just busy chatting with his girlfriend like a child..(I mean talking like a child)..or in his new Nokia touch screen mobile downloading videos, photos or latest software. Anything thats good about him is his clarity of mind about things we study or general knowledge, software, technical fields, physics...sometimes I think he should have been in IIT rather than Medicals...hmm, anyway for all his dirtiness and talking at night(and taking my sleep off..one thing I hate about him) he has got a good brain...good enough for me to understand the subject or different software available...to watch videos.

Now it comes to me..I am the middle of both of them, neither am I dirty nor I got a sense of cleanliness but the time I have in my room..I am just the average of both of my roommates...my house is near our hostel so every Saturday, Sunday I am off to my home.

So, this much is all I have known about my roommates in my 3 yr of hostel life and yes, I do feel lucky to have them..as I know others in our hostel..I could have the worst!!

what does it shows??

2010-03-13T05:41:00.000-08:00

just playing with words...not a poetry though...how was it??

heart thought dream disguise,

kind wish words thought,

want call wait life,

cry sleep journey forever,

chill breeze night cold,

small place stay peace,

search like green solace,

right soft wet dew,

inside smile view wide,

soul insight connect one,

alone but with everyone,

satiety mind too curious,

earth nature world universe,

revolving around moments confused,

time stop me with myself,

moments passed but me so still..................

sleeping dreaming thinking deeper,

deeper I went, trying so hard,

no way I reach, its everywhere,

word here words there...but no word to say,

alive died midway I am,

but its going on and on,

what's this I don't know,

just tell me what does it show??

fogs everywhere

2010-03-07T04:28:00.000-08:00

fogs everywhere...can't see,

but still walking on,

don't know where I am,

or which way I being,

had to think but no time,

or just the momentum,

I am going to shine!!

yes, I doubt as I move,

or its just a dream,

why I am so inconclusive,

if its my own life.

had it been different,

had I been better,

just the clouds above,

so difficult to reach the high!!

moments to stop, moments to see,

to break the shackles, to be free,

then why I am just sleeping,

or just sitting on my knee.

I do hope for better,

its my place, I deserve for,

and still I view the world around,

as my own life being.

I am not detached,

nor I say spiritual words,

but still I am confused,

asking questions to hit the chords.

fog it is but we could clear it,

the perspective we want,

brood and waste our time,

or just live it out, for the same!!

last week in college

2010-02-27T03:04:00.000-08:00

Hello friends..

hadn't written much these months because of being busy at the college...Its our last month of classes in our college and last week being enjoyed in full swing!!..
We had this interesting concept to enjoy our last weeks of college, where each day we would dress in some cool way, a type of fancy dress and attend the classes!!...

For Monday--> Men in Black...all of the students wear black shirt, pants, black shoes, black googles and some with black caps...

For Tuesday-->Tapori style, wearing dirty/ shiny shirts, googles, chain, knife, handkerchief being tied on the pants, on forehead, wearing small accessories like ear ring, ring over the eyes{obviusly not pierced!!}, thumb rings...for a cool attitude!

For Wednusday--> it was desi/ Odia style....thats kurta and dhoti!!....

For Thusday--> Bathroom style...to attend college wearing towel, vests/ banyans..some also took balti, mug and toothbrush with them!!...and singing...All izz well.....

For Friday--> fancy dress...sadhu baba, raja, women{in Saree}

So all and all we had some fun..though I missed the last two but still we enjoyed the class....our teacher were at first surprised but then its a tradition being held for many years so they didn't say much against it!...

It was funny at first to watch people reaction for us when we went being Tapori and also in bathroom style as they were confused to see medical students in this attire...our classes are little far from our hostel so it was inevitable, the patients, people looked at us bit puzzled and surprised but then, it was all we wanted....

College life is indeed fun though its our last year in the college!

a lonely traveller

2010-02-21T04:19:00.000-08:00

a lonely traveller,
some windy day,
wearing a big hat,
gleaming in sun ray...
which way his path.,
or what's his destination,
keeping some secrets,
he is moving away....

it's all sand over his feet,
with patches of clothes being stitched,
and a bag on his back,
treading the road with the beat....
was he tired, or he bored,
drops of sweat on the forehead,
somewhere to wash..to be fresh,
or just wear the same dirty dress!!

we just watched as he crossed,
curious our eyes, checking him up,
the children teasing, the toddlers play,
while the grown-up busy with hay,
but I wanted more or just a greed,
went near and asked what he need,
he looked at me, frowning a bit,
then he smiles as he speaks....

"just travelling the places,
exploring the new,
unknown is my destiny,
unsettled are my views....
following my heart,
enjoying these moments,
I am moving on...
whichever the way!!

So, son..I don't need anything,
as everything is around me,
yet you can wish me luck,
to find what I want to see"...
I was confused and puzzled,
why should anyone be like this?
but one side of mine adored him,
the life he has, the freedom he gets!!

So, goes the lonely traveller,
with his hopes and his wishes,
leaving behind a trail,
a path to be taken,
as the children wave from behind,
he waves back with a smile,
he may not return back, we may not see...
but still a good memory it will be!!

guess who we are?

2010-02-12T03:00:00.000-08:00

just trying to write different poetry, putting my imagination to a roll..hope you all like it...

swinging with the wind,
running on the field,
watching them take a feed,
storing up what I need...
days in and days out,
we just have to shout,
search everywhere being curious,
enjoying ourselves without a doubt!!

we had friends, we had foes,
yet someone near evoke our cries,
some got caught, other survived,
few got born, few dies..
we still had faith, still had the spirit,
still holding on, we had the grit,
but its inevitable, chances so bleak,
somewhere down, we were not fit.

alas they came, greedy..one day,
we didn't had our last say,
some left, running for life,
yet we didn't desert our way...
home shattered, we breathed our last,
on our beautiful place the death had cast,
we could see them laughing, wanting some more,
not had much time..it ended so fast!!...

we being nothing, voice so weak,
we had some friends but they didn't speak,
not supporting us, they let us vanish,
our only hope getting so meek...
guess who we are, in your conscience,
find us everywhere and be nice,
use power to restore not left out,
or just use us as your game of dice??

Influence

2010-02-06T22:07:00.000-08:00

hello friends...

Just thinking how could we get influenced by small things as I was watching a reality show in T.V. Why a person be thinking about the life of this guy/gal in reality show, their family..I couldn't get it. To it, add the emotional 'drama', and background music..we could feel their pain..support someone, defend something...

Then I was watching some debate in News about the ideologies and the hate politics in mumbai by sena (shiv sena, MNS)...the guy representing MNS/Sena are directly supporting their view..when asked about their use of violence a method of propagating their ideologies..he said that our leaders are just opposing it, we can't stop some of our activist from taking violence..they were not at all taking the responsibility of influencing the young minds!!..

let me ask them a simple question ...if human mind can be influenced to become a killer machine or act as human bomb {jehadi leaders}...can't it be just influenced for act of violence...against the government {read naxalites, kashmiri separists}, against so called migrants {read Shiv sena, MNS}..against race {read recent attacks on Indians in Australia}

Now comes the responsibility of government...is it doing enough to protect the thinking of our citizens..is it acting against these anti-social gentlemen??..or any effective method been devised to divert the minds..How could Sena influence its cadre to be against being called as Indians?? against Sachin...national icon!!

Talking about influence, how could we miss this entire debate of culture, morality, western influence....we had recently heard about moral policing...let me tell my view on it..
Morality can not be forced on someone..
It should be accepted as a respected tool..

for this, T.V, Movies, current globalisation, everything is responsible..we cannot stop it..but we can make our culture more attractive towards the others..or else how could be ISKON, Hindu religion becoming popular outside??...Why not popularise Panchatantra, Bikram betal. Akabar birbal..each one could indirectly influence the young mind towards the good as I have studies those..I know!!

Influence is the key used by many politicians,businessman, people to propagate their agenda..we were bound to be affected by it!!..The only thing the government need is..how effectively it increases the good influence on us and protecting us against the bad.

Its all about the media..

2010-01-30T04:14:00.000-08:00

We always think that the media is the fourth pillar of democracy...it gives us the news we required to know. But still there are a lot of exaggeration in any story it shows..just because competition, getting T.R.P...it had its effect on the people who blindly follow it!!

Take the fact-->

say why there is increase in incidence of attack on Indians these few years ...why there is growing level of insecurities between them??

why people like Raj thakeray, get publicity and popularising them to such an extent that there are ill thoughts about people from other region??..don't they see sooner or later same treatment they will get from other states??

How come a state of Telangana demand get the front page just due to someone fasting for it??..
sooner it led to riots, strikes and all...is that required??...that too against a government that they choose??...

There are a lot of such incidences where Media popularises things which are not good for the society just to increase their viewership!!...They would never take the blame to themselves just like a politician playing dirty game trying to show us that they were right but the situation showed them wrong.

Playing with emotions...an easy method to get instant fame, publicity but having a far after-effect!!...what really saddens me is that we the people, the responsible citizens living here easily fall in these traps. Its not always money for us but the faith we have on our leaders, we idolise them...not seeing the simple fact that they are too like us..humans with both good thing and bad thing in them. They too carve for money, and they also could take the meaner route for the same...we on our part must behave more responsibly and not to react to these small issues.
It will at least stop making it big!!..

Now come to Media..what we need is a regularisation of issues to be shown or not to be shown..
everything should be scrutinised and simpler, intelligent ways should be applied to display it!!..In a way that it wouldn't affect us so much that we would be on streets protesting for it.
Lets hope we would be responsible enough for this..!!

It not all about media, it's all about us.

A student's dillema

2010-01-18T04:34:00.001-08:00

The poetry being inspired by some true story in our government college, where there are few teachers who just have a double standard while evaluating students, some personal anger, just showing off the knowledge and completely a negative attitude towards the students. In that case what could a student do??...you couldn't blame the teacher right??...just like the concept in "3idiots" !! {just one or two teacher are there...it's not about the others!!}

being sincere, I attended the class..
with much patience I listened..
not to say I studied too hard,
yet the result was not in my card!!

I was not brilliant, not half bad,
just in average, being rated as lad,
but why today my results are bad,
what made the teacher to be so mad??

never seen a person so filled with ego,
testing our knowledge..or just showing off??
we were just new..mistakes inevitable,
yet he expects..in each answers we are able!!

discouraging from the start...smirk on the face,
he says--"you don't know anything"
how could we replying with his fear on mind,
and the weaker just getting blackout!!

In contrast was another..so student friendly,
making us relaxing, bringing answers out of mind,
happy we could but brooding for the other,
how does it feel...to be fail for no reason!!

while you study and some have fun,
but they pass for no reason,
different the teacher, in equal the marks,
while you failed, they get passed.

yes, a student dilemma it is,
couldn't protest to the teacher.,
as the world see the fault in the student,
what if the wrong being on the other side???

being you as my friend.

2010-01-03T01:37:00.000-08:00

Hey friends, just tried a new romantic poetry/song....hope you would like it!!...
apprieciate your comments--->

I had been there,
waiting for you ,
behind those dreams,
aspirations, your desires....
looking for you,
searching in your eyes,
insecure, nervous ,
saving those innocent cries!!

no matter the odd, you came,
not a moment did you blame,
strengthening that small part in me..
writing just your name...
softer, deeper I had gone,
with those sincere efforts,
and I waited, to be mend,
tender touch used to blend!!

and I changed...
being you as my friend,

I had been there,
waiting for you ,
with renewed hopes,
and the faith in us....
believing in you,
fearing the inevitable,
but gal..I'm so true,
its our love I only knew!!

have patience, we will wait,
time will come, will come the date,
we will be together, be complete,
be happy forever as we met...
till then have faith,
in us..our relation,
we will remember, keep at heart..
just know I will be there!!

and life would be changed..
being you as my friend.

was content better or greediness??

2009-12-29T03:14:00.000-08:00

blow of the wind..
or the flow of the river,
never stops for someone,
just move on there way.
had it been the mountain,
or our old banyan tree,
being patient, steady..
resisting them and be free.

just watch the vulnerable fish,
risking life to go upstream...
or the poor dolphins in the water,
watching us and beam.
the believe, faith they have,
or the mere experience...
but yet with such sincerity,
use their natural sense!!

they grow where been planted,
never strayed from herd,
but it's being so predictable,
and made us so feared.
many things we watch in them,
few do we ever understand,
yet intelligent one always say..
always learn from the nature!!

we as human had excelled,
for survival of the fittest,
and dominating mother earth,
our genes became the best.
but we falter..try to overdo,
as we exploited the resources,
trying to get the alternative route
and now had to fight among ourselves!

truth is simple..we would face,
or perish with our foolishness,
just a question being at heart..
was content better or greediness??

life has so much to give!!

2009-12-24T03:26:00.000-08:00

take time to live,
life has so much to give!!

running all days,
sleeping so little,
it's all about race,
we want to win!!

why look at sides,
if we falter in our line,
days come and goes,
memories only grows,

some regrets or recall,
why not give life a call,
don't be monotonous,
get refreshed....relax!!

look at world..there so much,
revitalise your senses,
explore, experience, observe
just open the fences!!

its the desire of freedom,
everyone feels, never says,
friends, families and oneself
it's where your happiness lays!!

don't ignore, or run,
take out some time...for fun,
take time to live,
life has so much to give!!

fire in our mess

2009-12-20T01:42:00.000-08:00

Hello friends..

This is a incidence that happened in our mess this week and I would like to share it with you all.
It was just another day and we were having a lunch in our mess..it was Friday and we had chicken meal and mess a bit crowded. we were having lunch and chat all along.

It such happened that I noticed all guys are running with tightly enclosing there ear with there fingers as if there is a bomb in the room. I too panicked seeing them running like that and we too (me n my friends) started running toward the door and through it to outside to our room. All the way I was thinking what could be the cause...a practical joke, a bomb ??...

After asking some of my friends I realised that the cylinder of our mess was on fire ( just the gas pipes though) and it really gave me a scare. Everyone panicked, no one dared to enter the kitchen...what if the cylinder bursts!!...some of the mess members run to fetch someone. And we students were watching from a distance with our ear close and heart in our mouth, what will happen. Someone is saying to put water on it, or sand. We didn't have fire extinguisher in our mess so hadn't much option. Few student were showing some courage by going little nearer to have a better view ( as if they can control the fire if it bursts).

After many tiring minutes, one of the member brought a fire extinguisher from somewhere and courageously controlled the fire. We all relaxed, some of students captured photo of the cylinder and the men who had done such courageous act.

Though everything became normal still it gave some scare to us...just think if it would have be burst with we inside the mess, our life would have been in danger. Precaution should have to be taken to prevent such incidence and a fire extinguisher a must for such place . Hope they mess manager would took such precaution to provide security against these unfavourable events!!

separate statehood??

2009-12-13T01:48:00.000-08:00

Hello friends,

I know this is a burning issue which have been on a rise in India...Media and news showing the hunger strikes, burning of buses, bandhs all over Andhra pradesh for Telangana....same with the issue of Gorkhaland,...and recently Mayawati wanting to divide UP and bringing still another three states as Bundelkhand, Haritpradesh and Purvanchal!!

Till date 9 states are pending in state. Just to think that Sardar Patel would have been happy to see he way the Nation is crumbling for which he had done so much!!. I don't know much about politics, the issues of concern or the validity of such issues. But just as a responsible learned citizen I would like to give my point of view on the same....

To start with the fact that there is rising trend of regionality in our country...something our regional small parties openly supporting. We can't blame them as its us supporting them....everyone have a reason, some says its all because these regions are underdeveloped, given less importance, some for there identity...its what shows in the emotions of the people. But let me ask a simple question, how could they get deprived in a institute made by themselves??

Some state leaders and regional parties are taking this issue to a whole different level, like our U.P chief minister Mayawati...Have you ever wondered what will the people gain with a separate state or what did they loose if the state will not divide?? The life will go on as usual, No one wants a state...they just want there demand be met!!

Then who will get profit from a separate state....Its the politicians as usual. A new state means new big offices, more money from to centre to gobble or to use. They are taking there chance for the same. But there are some genuine issues too...may be Telangana have some. In any case you just cannot justify breaking a Nation into pieces and advertising regionalism. Anyone can give any reason for dividing the country...You need heart to keep it as one!!

Note--> The things written is entirely my view and I am not intended to hurt any sentiments!!

strife within

2009-12-04T03:58:00.000-08:00

strife within,
asking me out...
which way am I in?
which is the right place to be....
not a place I want to hide,
nor do I ask to revive,
old times, good times...
moments, so little to lose!!

strife within,
for what I am...
my actions n reactions,
acts done willing or non-willing....
could have been better,
got more respect and power,
but then its all in us,
knowing and upbringing!!

strife within,
as I try to reason..
something is just faith,
hard work and luck with...
yes, I desire for more,
but that's so human nature,
accept things as it is,
and world a better place for me!!

strife within,
and all I ask you...
think and make your move,
a path you want to be...
tread on unknown..
or just queue up,
but the end be same,
just the memories being left!!

winter..

2009-11-28T04:27:00.001-08:00

winter..at last!!...
bless me with the cold wind,
with some respite from heat,
a season more awaited...
or just the moment so being!!
never I wished the cold bath,
nor waking up early,
but it had such flavor...
like water for a thirsty!!

so...don't we feel relieved?...the fear of summer, global warming, and glaciers being melted. Or just we wished to be walking in our warm jacket, mothers to make sweaters, purchase warm clothes, drink soups..sleep inside our blanket..such shivering in cold night,and all those things which make the winters so special!!

though not much cold here in my place yet I do remember the cold days in jammu n dehradun..and we do feel little worried in the change in winter patterns..but still I am going to enjoy this season..
the tea n coffee are so special this season 9also in rainy season) and walking in evening with hands inside my pocket, with sweaters on. Though every season has its feel and I am trying to enjoy it fully..
who knows if these season will retain their uniquity and the feel we really enjoy!!..what do you say??

feel the season, feel the moment,
it will not be same again,
its new now, afresh...
yet we are busy, why??

it's my fear!!

2009-11-14T23:32:00.000-08:00

its the fear..
ohh!..my dear,
its not the time to see..
I just want to flee!!

I don't want to go,
there are so many,
and not to be alone,
they may see me!!
not so high, I may fall..
not so far, I can't call,
I am weak, I can't stand,
all so strong, not my land!!

why do I try,
failure inevitable...
I am nervous, so shy,
can't work, I am not able!!
can't believe the friends,
they may be fake,
can't stand the relationship,
it may shake!!

It's the fears,
they stop, they warn,
they make me so cautious,
that I don't thread new paths.
I want to be free,
but invisible bond enclosing me..
yes its my fear,
always I had to bear!!

they say to face it,
be confidence..get over it,
but will they know,
the pain is one with me....
time will teach..some says,
may be I can deal,
my mind not so clear,
yet I will fight...it's my fear!!

something common

2009-11-07T03:39:00.000-08:00

fly like a bird,
run like a horse,
be ageless like a tree,
or swim like a fish!..
we wish, we imagine,
be a child making a rhyme,
all lost words, desires,
or just the part of our past.

we have those roots,
yet we have greed,
neither are we happy,
nor in a creed.
we meet, socialise,
discuss, debate all days,
we work , we act,
strike riches from the hays!

but still something missing,
its all we feel..
reasons so many yet so common,
things we just can't deal.
Had I been straight,
had I been true...
ask yourself...ask as a whole,
and then realise it, coming through??

it's just a dream??

2009-11-02T02:46:00.000-08:00

sensation all over,
as I visualise..
running places to places,
making desires to creations..
bringing characters to life,
to reach,
to find..
my search for something,
someone, I don't know!!

beautiful the landscape,
with forests, and rivers...
bushes, trees, and animals..
wild and real to be near,
quenching thirst in rivers,
to revitalise,
to flourish..
my love to introspect,
to perceive, I haven't known!!

Had I been alone,
or being with many..
amusing myself with things around,
leaning their skills, the life..
gaining experiences all along,
to feel,
to realise...
my reasons in life,
beliefs I wanted to question!!

may be its all false,
a state of twilight sleep..
it seems so convincing and old,
yet so fresh as a morning dew...
to hope,
to imagine..
but to rise from dream,
and forget it in life.
or be in deep slumber....
living it in full time!!

it's just a dream??

a appeal to mother Earth!!

2009-10-31T00:20:00.000-07:00

just a drop of it...
or some sight,
what it matters for me,
to make the things right!!
for the ocean of love...
heart so big,
its not too much to ask for,
forgiveness is all I dig.

It might be too late,
or I am so weak,
cannot return you what's lost,
or bring your old life.
how can I ?
for my interests so different...
a false move,
make my whole life to repent!!

I may have been waken,
but I am still in dreams,
so, blurred is my vision...
to think things clearly!!
it will take time,
just you need to be patient,
just don't punish me so soon,
not giving some moments to relent!!

Me as a human will realise soon,
as you my mother had given,
and soon will I be with you,
before your anger become apocalypse...
Its just a matter of days,
for me to choose a path...
to take me more near to you...
to have a more serene view!!

to be known!!

2009-10-25T09:49:00.000-07:00

to be known...
to belong,
how I wish,
to be someone!!
being in the crowd,
watching those empty looks,
the future, the past,
a mad rush not to last!!

why am I here,
so many of us,
all so different yet so same,
choices so many, hope so more!!
am I right to think?
or to just move away,
tell me just once,
which way my path being!!

When I know them,
learn so in experience,
will I realise the meaning,
or abstract thoughts its been!!
I have still time,
but way too little,
for I am just enjoying,
what I never meant to be!!

may be or mayn't be...
I know I can't answer,
nor anyone for sure,
can tread on the issue!!
still I have faith, the hope,
the dreams and aspirations,
walk as I go..looking for signs,
might get it or mightn't...does it matter??

being so alone in the crowd,
yet a part of society..the human being,
I think, I aspire..try to fulfill my desire,
may be I reach or may get invisible,
Till then be my wish...
to be known!!

I don't care

2009-10-24T01:16:00.000-07:00

Hello friends,
just tried to write something different...hope you like it!!

I don't care,
nor do I want...
why are you here,
if not so sincere??
Got my own work,
lonely I better be...
I can do better,
away from your concern!!

Hate you..NO!!
just minding my business,
Can't stand your talk more..
just wanting my time alone.
far I would go...
better I would be,
just me and myself besides me,
who needs you in my life??

Anger...fire inside me heart,
not an ocean can drench it..
Hatred it's not or may be,
or just irritable my mind be!!
no remorse, no guilt do I feel,
more and more weaker I may be,
had I done right is the question,
just needed some time to be asked!!

Now the moment, now being calm,
just recalling the past things...
on the wrong path was I,
or just forced by the circumstances,
but far I did go,
from a point of no return..
time gone can't be forgiven,
mistakes being done at the high.....

looking back in life..just I see,
making up a decision in a hurry,
if ever I had the patience,
if ever I had the support...to understand,
I don't care??